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The Truth:
The truth is, I’m sad.. I thought this year was going to be the most awesome year ever. And it was, in the beginning, then all of the sudden.. it changed. I don’t know what happened. I started to feel.. Excluded by my friends. At first, I thought I was just imagining it, by slowly.. I have come to the reality that what I was feeling was true.. I am being excluded by my closest friends.. or what I considered to be my closest friends. I first noticed this a couple months ago.. March to be exact, I don’t know..it just hurts to think about the fact that they don’t notice that I am here. I sometimes feel like I don’t have any friends at all, I feel alone most of the time. I am not the type of person who pushes themselves on people.. but it kind of hurts when I hear about my friends having a good time without me. I don’t really show when my sad feelings much to anyone..people see me as the happy, cheery person.. and most of the time I am. I don’t like sharing sad feelings to anyone, so I tell them that I am okay, or I’m just tired. I mean, I don’t mind that my friends are having a fun time.. I want them to.. I just hate the feeling of being left out of the conversation sometimes. I also hate the feeling of feeling the way im feeling.. I feel soo conceited and selfish..I miss the first couple months of this school year, I honestly don’t like change, but I know you can’t do anything to stop it. That’s why I’m so sad.. I can’t do anything.. but no matter what I just want my friends to know.. I LOVE THEM!! And that I will always be there for them.
