AWESOMENESS!

  1. The Truth:

    The truth is, I’m sad.. I thought this year was going to be the most awesome year ever. And it was, in the beginning, then all of the sudden.. it changed. I don’t know what happened. I started to feel.. Excluded by my friends. At first, I thought I was just imagining it, by slowly.. I have come to the reality that what I was feeling was true.. I am being excluded by my closest friends.. or what I considered to be my closest friends. I first noticed this a couple months ago.. March to be exact, I don’t know..it just hurts to think about the fact that they don’t notice that I am here. I sometimes feel like I don’t have any friends at all, I feel alone most of the time. I am not the type of person who pushes themselves on people.. but it kind of hurts when I hear about my friends having a good time without me. I don’t really show when my sad feelings much to anyone..people see me as the happy, cheery person..  and most of the time I am. I don’t like sharing sad feelings to anyone, so I tell them that I am okay, or I’m just tired. I mean, I don’t mind that my friends are having a fun time.. I want them to.. I just hate the feeling of being left out of the conversation sometimes. I also hate the feeling of feeling the way im feeling.. I feel soo conceited and selfish..I miss the first couple months of this school year, I honestly don’t like change, but I know you can’t do anything to stop it. That’s why I’m so sad.. I can’t do anything.. but no matter what I just want my friends to know.. I LOVE THEM!! And that I will always be there for them.



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    1. kmj07 said: Merwin :(
    2. cantliveaneasylife said: Merwin, I am always here for you. Though we’re not as close as you think, I will always have open arms to anyone especially if the person is as genuine as you. Come to me, and confide in me when you needed someone to talk to. i love you Jing!
    3. teenyrieny said: Merwin, I LOVE YOU! & I know how you feel. Change has a way of slapping you in the face. But you’re right… there’s nothing we can do about it, except deal with it. Just know that Im ALWAYS here for you, always & Im never gonna leave you hanging :)
    4. angelala15 said: You have no idea how much we relate right now, Jing. I just want you to know that you are not the only one going through this… Although this is a sad thought, I just can’t help but feel…”better” a bit. Maybe it’s because I don’t feel so alone…
    5. chakattack said: I have the same feeling too. But I don’t really show it. Sometime I might seem happy about everything. But really inside, I feel really sad.
    6. amandachungi said: Honestly, I am sad too. I know how you feel Merwin. I feel so out of place and I really believed this year would be so awesome and easy but it is the total opposite. I want this year to be over but then again I dont want it to be.
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